Dreams~

Almost every night, always having this sort of vivid dreams. Last night, I dreamed I have cancer and I lived by the beach, my whole lorong in Taman Milek is covered in beach sand and there's the sea at end of it...it was weird but beautiful...damn, and I have cancer in that dream...ain't it vivid. I have so many things caught up inside me and I'm sliding backwards. I sometimes just need to cry, to let out whatever been eating me up, but that just leaves only temporary relief and comfort, so I don't bother, it'll just gives me another headache. I get massive headaches after I cry, weird right? How time flies by so quickly, I'd already graduated, and soon in need to find a job, going to the next stage of becoming an adult. It's a scary step for everyone....live moves on. It sucks when one don't have a driving license *points to self*..can't go to interesting events..it sucks egg....

Thank God for healing up my eczema once and for all, and thank Him for introducing Dr. Wong & Saroja in my life...but I'm sliding back, which I'm trying hard not to...

Let's all go for a ride!

Final project is going slow..hopefully will be finished though, hahahaha.....alot of things happening here...can't wait to go Bali...the beach and suntan :D

I haz phailed..

I has failed my team...but why don't I feel guilty in all this...hmmmm...me and my sick humor

Bikin panas...

Geramnya....group aku, bikin panas ni.....mereka ingat aku ni siapa?!! Ko mo aku buat apa?! Sy tahu sy tak boleh ckp Canton, biarkan....lagipun aku ni mcm mop dr group member kpd mereka suma....klo mahu aku dlm necessary situasi, bru mo p'ggil aku...klo tak perlu, tak panggil, buat aku tak tahu apa yg sdg b'laku....arghhh....


I need to let it out....



Wow, an update, hahaha.

Help

Please don't let my old habit come back again...

All I can think is pain, pain and pain...

Is easy to do but hard to hide...

I'll just let this pain consume me and everything will settle down by itself...

Feelings of satisfaction and regrets clashes together...

I am seriously killing my heart...

*Sigh

Why do I feel so....dead?

Ehmo

=( .......why oh why? What is wrong with me..? I ask myself everyday...*sigh*

Today's the day where people would look at you,
Put on your happy mask, put on your happy mask,
Cause that's the happiness you wish you had,
Today's the day where people would laugh at you,
Put on your happy mask, put on your happy mask,
Cause that's the pain you are going to take..