I need to feel again..

I want to scream my lungs out till I lose my voice, I want to hurt myself so badly, is driving me nuts....I have been feeling shitty...downright shitty for the past 2 weeks already. I do not whether my problems is real or I'm being paranoid again..I hate it so much!! It had been driving me to the edge of insanity...so I just swallow up all my pain, problems, everything to myself....I had already stop crying to this pains because I'm sick of myself.... I'm not pitying myself here, and if you think I am, then you can go fuck yourself....

Why isn't there any fucking beach near Sunway....I need to stop my insanity...